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Different - a poem that expresses my experience of and feelings about DID

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WeAreKaren
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Different - a poem that expresses my experience of and feelings about DID

Post by WeAreKaren on 1/19/2016, 1:47 pm

Different

Some days I feel strange, and different
as I contemplate
that I have many people sharing my mind

We are a co-op of mentality,
a collection of personality parts
Alike, yet different

Sometimes it feels as though I’m alone in my skull
Other times, it feels like there’s a party going on
Most often, it’s somewhere in-between

Sometimes for hours at a time, I feel as I once did
I feel like just me, alone in my mind, talking to myself
Doesn’t everyone?

Then someone says, Watch out or you’ll trip
Or Let’s go out to eat tonight,
and shows me a picture of their favorite meal

And then I remember that I’m not alone
in the way that most others are
Because the voices and the pictures are in my head

Those who think that I could possibly feel normal
being what I am
don’t have a clue what it really feels like

It feels different, it feels strange
I am different,
and I always will be

That is a reality I accept, and am learning to excel at
There is no other way for me
to move forward on the path of life

Yet I know if I told most people what goes on inside my head
they would count me as crazy or a liar
and they would turn away in discomfort or fear

But I can’t go back to the way it was
Now that I know,
I can’t deny what and who I am

I am lucky to be alive and aware
And I will always remember and be thankful
that the people who share my mind saved my life

If the child I was hadn’t created them
I would’ve died,
or become a walking vegetable

So I will do the best that I can
to honor all the parts of me,
to live the life that they made possible

But it isn’t easy, and it never will be

Some days I feel strange, and different
as I contemplate
that I have many people sharing my mind

And now that I know
now that I am learning to live a life that includes all of me
I can’t help but wonder if I will ever find others
who are not afraid to share this new life with me

What about you?
Do the people in my head scare you,
or can you accept them as parts of me?

All I want is to lead a full life
perhaps not a normal life by most people's standards
but a life that is rewarding and happy

And like most people,
I want to share that life with friends,
and with someone special

If you could accept me for who I am
then you could be part of that life
but if you can't, then I'll be the one to turn away from you

Because I can't go back to the days of ignorance
I can't repudiate the parts of me
who saved me from death, or life as a walking vegetable

Perhaps it's a life that is strange, and different
Yet it is a life that's full of wonder
It is a life that I will always appreciate having

Can you turn away the Little Ones inside me
who protected me in my time of danger?
Can you turn away the Teenagers
whose anger pulled me through horrific times?

That's who you are turning away from
if you turn away from me -
the ones who believe that life is worth living,
the ones who made it possible for me to be here today

They are very special parts of me
with whom I am glad to share my life
I hope that you will think so too

Copyright 2016 WeAreKaren

MultipleMe
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Re: Different - a poem that expresses my experience of and feelings about DID

Post by MultipleMe on 1/19/2016, 2:13 pm

Beautiful poem! Thanks for sharing your thoughts so eloquently. Looking forward to hearing more from you. #poems
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im not alone

Post by Annalee on 1/28/2016, 7:31 pm

I have felt alone like a failure in life but i read your poem and i understand. Where i live DID is not considered to be real. Thankyou for posting your poem
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Re: Different - a poem that expresses my experience of and feelings about DID

Post by krathyn on 1/28/2016, 8:19 pm

wonderful writing.
i do share many of those feelings.
feeling different.
and yet its so necessary to my well being.
thanks for writing and posting



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Re: Different - a poem that expresses my experience of and feelings about DID

Post by felicity on 1/29/2016, 4:18 pm

Thank you for sharing - we can relate. Nice work .



     

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Re: Different - a poem that expresses my experience of and feelings about DID

Post by Kaia on 2/13/2016, 2:20 pm

so beautiful and true. thank you for sharing such beauty from your heart.

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Re: Different - a poem that expresses my experience of and feelings about DID

Post by WeAreKaren on 2/13/2016, 4:55 pm

MultipleMe, Annalee, Krathyn, Felicity, and Kaia - Thank you for your kind words. It's good to be able to share this poem with people who truly understand.

I hope also that those who come to this public part of the board who are not multiple can gain some sort of understanding of what it feels like, and know at least a few of the reasons why those of us who choose to embrace our multiple-ness must be all that we are.
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